a girl who felt betrayed

i felt so down now
i felt it burn inside
thank you for your lies, dear
i'm not going to forget it all
but dont worry, i wouldn't be mad to you 
i'm just a little bit disappointed
but it's ok. i'll be fine. as soon as possible, when my life ends, i'll leave this scar
and may i hope, if one day, when my life ends, i want you to go back with her :)

Life is a choice

aku uda capek
capek di salah-salah in, capek sama keadaan, capek berakting like everything's gonna be okay
tapi apa? liat kan? semuanya tambah parah
aku kecewa, marah. Sama siapa? sama diriku sendiri mungkin. Sama mereka yg selalu menyalahkan
harusnya gak perlu aku lanjutkan sejauh ini. harusnya aku berhenti dari dulu
temen2mu udah bener2 gak bisa nrima aku. Dan aku! aku udah capek selalu ngerasa nyakitin kamu
entahlah, aku harus menyalahkan siapa
aku terlalu takut mengambil keputusan dan menanggung resiko. tapi aku harus
dan pilihan ku ......

HONESTY ...

to be honest, dear
i never betrayed you
you know that i love you so much. Yes, you're the one
i don't ever want to let you go. i love you for sure, and i dont wanna stop this flow
but, i can't handle my selfishness
now, what should i do? honestly, i didn't understand
i want to stay, but i dnt want to hurt you
i want to be with you, but my heart say that you're gonna fine wthout me
i'd love to see you happy by my side, but in fact you're never happy with me 
the way you love me ... i just never feel like this before
thankyou for always understand me. thankyou for your loving . thank you for always keep me from falling hard 
there never will be another like you :'
i love you son